Friday, October 19, 2007

WHO CUT THE CHEESE?


Bah Bah Black Sheep


If I were a black sheep, I would understand the reason I graze in a field alone... and I would already know why no one stays, family runs and love lingers not, if I were a black sheep....

If I were a black sheep I could comprehend the complexities in the coarseness of my wool, the uniqueness of my look, and why I am so distinctly different; not easily conformed, or braided into the mindless folds of the worlds' fabricated reality... for simply being... a black sheep... I'm rejected and ejected...

As a black sheep I’d be born into the awareness of being odd, fueld by struggled attempts to become mainstream and normal... They’d all just be my repeated strokes of failure... I’d be too concious of being a black sheep and too selfish to not...

"YESSIR, YESSIR, I’m 3 bag’s so very full..." one bag jam packed with charred heartaches, festering heartbreaks and scarred flesh... another bag overflowing with a lingering darkness in the corners of my eyes, expectations of hurt and lies floating like an oily film over the desires of my mind... and the last sullied sack, dirty with marks of being pulled through fluttering relationships, judgements and slanders... a black sheep...


I stand here in the openess of life, grazing in my field alone... It’s a picture perfect display called "the black sheep" the one un-pretty, the odd one, the one that just doesn’t fit in with the rest... that black sheep... motherless, abandoned, mis-used and distrusted... that ugly ass black sheep, un-wanted, nothingness and indifferent, angry and bitter... incapable of loving or giving worth... that black sheep... that gh’at damned black sheep...


It’s his pride of being.... that keeps him, the black sheep...

Rehab... No No No! (maybe it should be Yes, Yes, Yes!)

OSLO (AFP) - Norwegian police briefly arrested and then fined British soul singer Amy Winehouse for possessing and using marijuana, a lawyer working with the police in Bergen said Friday.
"She spent a few hours in custody from Thursday evening to early Friday, she got a fine and then she was released," Lars Lothe told AFP.
"The case is over for us," he added. Winehouse was fined 500 euros (714 dollars).


The singer was due to perform in Bergen, in the west of Norway, on Friday.
Police arrested Winehouse with two others in a hotel bedroom in possession of seven grams (a quarter of an ounce) after acting on a tip-off, said Lothe.
The award-winning singer's struggle to deal with her drink and drugs problem has been well publicised in recent months. In August, she checked into a rehabilitation clinic with her husband Blake Fielder-Civil last month.
She also pulled out of several concerts in Britain and France, citing "health issues."
Elected Best UK Female award at the MOBO (Music of Black Origin) awards in London in September, her best-known hit is "Rehab".

I know Who Holds 2morrow

I don't know about tomorrow,

I just live from day to day.

And I don't borrow from his sunshine

'Cause his skies may turn to gray.

And I don't worry about my future,

for I know what Jesus said,

And today he'll walk beside me'

for he knows what lies ahead.


Many things about tomorrow

I don't seem to understand

But I know , I know, I know, who holds tomorrow

And I know who holds my hand...

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Wade Robinson kills it...






This dude is like a quiet storm.. hot... hot... hot...

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

YES...







Will you do what is required of you?

It's Already Done...


Wow... I've been singing this song for some weeks now... seems like the lord has just sent me a praying spirit to fight some demons in my life... I guess its like the songs says... Wounds get in the Way, wounds from, mistrust, distrust, hurt, scars of the past that have life long wounds, its like a healing on the surface but without the touch of God. They seem to just boil and fester on the inside, it is those things that have been preventing me from receiving my blessings... So as I meditate on this song... I am learning to recognize the fact "that everything that is; will be " becuz in reality It's already done... my path has already been written, my life is already laid out and my destiny is set forth, Im just walking the pattern designed by God... (now staying along the lines and not stepping outside the boundaries is all up to me... )

Its almost a painful comedy how things have been presenting themselves to me in the most unusual ways, from friends to family... things just seem to manifest themselves right before my eyes... and all I can say is WOW... aint no changing folks... aint no use in pouting about tough situations... its just a test... folks and situations are just mountains to climb... praying to move the mountain doesnt make u stronger... but prayers for strength to make it over and through give you the power to stand firm against the next adversity... It's Already Done... yesterday I may have been down there but today I'm one step higher than yesterday.. It's Already Done... and Thank God for that...

I've decided that its ok to accept struggle.. its ok to embrace the storm.. its ok to still love folks who mean you no good because its not them its just circumstance and situation that creates the behavior, and ultimately, its ok to "go through some stuff'" ... because you cant appreciate being in the sun if you've never been through the rain... so I know there's a blessing for me , and I know he's working it out for me... I have faith he's working it out in me.. and working it out all around me... It's Already Done...

Going through life seemingly alone aint always easy... but when you learn, your truly never alone, is when your joy comes to life... and for me... It's Already Done... pray my strength and sanity!